Thursday, July 26, 2007

What a day!!!

Well today has been an exciting day. First I waited for Wayne to get home from work this morning so that we could go pay bills. So we left, Wayne dropped me off at the scrapbook store while he went next door to get the car washed... I picked up a couple of things that I need for a design team submission that I am working on. While I was there one of the classes that I am teaching filled up. A lady called and reserved the last two spots for the inking class and Beverly said that there were two people, I believe, that has signed up for the mixed media class. So I was excited about that.

Then we stopped and ate at Steak Escape and yummo it was sooooo good :) I love their hambrosia sandwiches... Ham and pineapple, yummy :) Then we head to Kerr's Music World to pick up the things that Ariel needs for flag corp. Coming to find out most of it has to be ordered and won't be in for a week after it is ordered. O.K. So then we head off to Sam's to have the tires on the car rotated and balanced. We told them that there was a vibration in the car since we got the new tires put on, so to please check it out... Well the guy that did the tires kept trying to tell Wayne that the rims on the car was bent and two of them needed to be replaced, blah blah blah.... well he just kept on about how it could happen and what it will cause the car to do... blah blah.... While at the same time Wayne is digging his ASE Master Techinician Certification out of his wallet... Shows it to the guy and says, "Buddy, this isn't my first rodeo, I know what it can do" The guy shut his mouth and didn't say another word... heheheheh.... I loved it!

Well we leave and as we leave the shopping center we noticed an accident that just happened. One car was on it's top and the driver was laying halfway out of the passenger side and the front end of the other car was smashed to smitereens... There was and elderly woman and her 12 year old grandson in that one. Wayne being an EMT takes control of the situation (there was no emergency personnel on the scene yet) Another EMT was taking care of the guy in the rolled over car, so Wayne goes to the other car. He has me do C-Spine on the lady while he checks out the boy and then goes and checks on the other patient. I think everyone will be fine. The little boy was really scared, but not hurt. The woman's hand went through her windshield, but I think that is all, but will be very sore from the airbag too. The guy in the rollover will be o.k., but not sure of the extent of his injuries. It was neat being able to work right there side by side with Wayne in this kind of situation and getting to see what it feels like in his job. Now I am even more excited about taking the EMT class come this fall.

On another note...Wayne's Anatomy and Physiology classes were finished yesterday. He passed the class with a 98!!! I am so proud of him. His Paramedic classes start on August 20. I know that he will do just as well with those too. I love him so much and appreciate what he is doing to better himself and make a better life for his family. He is a good man. I am glad that he is finally getting to do what he has always wanted to do with his life. He is a happy person now and it shows.

Well I guess that is it for tonight, I just wanted to share my day :)

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I snagged this from Becky's Blog

A friend of Becky's sent this to her. It was something that I really want to remember so I wanted to post it here too. Becky if you want me to remove it, let me know and I will :)


The Mayonnaise Jar and Two Cups of Coffee...

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 Hours in a day is not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed."Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things - God, family, children, health, friends, and favorite passions -- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car. The sand is everything else -- the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you."So... Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal."Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand." One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked". It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

It's almost over...

Summer that is. Joey's special education summer school program will be over with tomorrow. Ariel start practice for the flag corp team for the high school today. So that means that the footballs players will be starting their practice soon. This will mean hectic Fridays for me because if I want to go to the games and be able to watch Ariel at halftime, then I have to find a sitter for Joey as he DOES NOT do well with crowds.... And as of right now, Wayne can't help me with him, because of the way that his school schedule and work schedule will be, so more than likely he won't be there to help with him if I can't find a sitter.

Today will actually be last day of peace and quiet. Wayne will be home tomorrow so it is a day filled with running the roads, paying bills, grocery shopping, etc..... Then no more school for Joey till the school year starts. I guess I am lucky since his vcr and tapes keep him very occupied, but we all have hell to pay when he wheres the vcr out!!!! Hopefully I can find some more at yard sales as I only have one more that is stored away for when the one that he has now is dead.

I have been reading a lot of other people's blogs lately. I so wish I could write like them :) They can be so funny, interesting and thought provoking. I guess the only thing I have to write about is what goes on in my little world, I would just like to be able to put a funny spin on things every once in while :)

Oh well maybe when I grow up....

Monday, July 23, 2007

Random thoughts

I have to laugh at Ariel. She has decided that she wants to paint her room, even though within the next 6 months to a year we will be replacing the insulation, sheetrock and windows in her room. So I told her that is fine, but you have to take off the wall border and the walls have to be cleaned with bleach water before you can paint. She said, are you serious Mom? I said yep, sure am, but I won't let you paint until the other stuff is done.... Well she has been working on the border all day and has about half of it done. She says her arms hurt, lol. She said but I thought you were going to help me mom? I told her, hmmmm, remember when I was re-doing my bedroom? Did you help me? I will show you how to do everything, but if you want it done then you need to do it. You are old enough to do these things now and you don't need me to do them for you, you just need me to show you how and then you can conquer it. Think of how satisfied you will feel when you get done! She now says that she will never get done, lol. I just think that it is so cute. But know ole softy Mom, I will probably go in there and help her because I feel sorry for her... But then again, maybe not, hehehe.

The house is back to normal again. Joey is back home from summer and has settled down. When he got home he went straight to his bedroom to the vcr/tapes. I only see him when it is time to eat or take his pills or to get ready for bed:) He is happy!

I had a very long talk with Tiffany the other day. I don't think that it sunk in how serious I am about the way that she treats me. She is my daughter, but I am not dirt under her feet and I won't be treated that way any longer. I told her she would have to make the first step. That was 3 days ago and I still have yet to hear from her.

Who knows....oh well.... This is what life is all about....

Friday, July 20, 2007

I wonder...

I wonder... I wonder if what my mom said was right..."One day I would have a child that would treat me the same way that I treated her"... I wonder how someone that you have given birth to and loved more than life itself can want to hurt you so badly... Did I treat my mother as bad as i am being treated right now.... Do I deserve to be treated this way... I don't think so, but I may be wrong. But one thing I am not wrong about is the fact that I won't be treated this way again.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

A Nice Day

I really enjoyed myself today :) I went to the new scrapbook store to work on a layout for a class that I will be teaching there in a couple of weeks. It was nice hanging out there and getting to know Beverly a little better. I hope that people will sign up for the class. I always worry that no one will sign up: I guess that is the pessimistic side of me.

Matthew left to go back home to Germany today. I know that Tiffany is sad about it and now wishes that she would have made plans to go home with him. She will be leaving on the first. That will be a very sad day for me. I will miss her and Dominick so very much and I don't know when I will see them again. I won't be able to travel to Germany, because I can't leave Joey for that long and I can't take him with me. Even though my feelings have been hurt some while they have been here, I have thoroughly enjoyed the time that I have been able to spend with them. Tiffany is on the right road to growing up, but isn't there quite yet. I have learned over the years that growing up takes a while and is a very hard process. I know that I was no where near grown up when I married the first time and had Tiffany. Althought I thought I was grown and knew everything about the world. If I knew then the things that I know now and have been through, then so many things would be sooooo very different. But we have to learn from our mistakes and most of the time I had to learn the hard way.

O.K. so I am rambling....Random thoughts...that is what is usually in my mind. You know I read other people's blogs and say I wish I could write like them. Their thoughts seem to be so organized, maybe I suffer from Adult ADD...who knows...but my thoughts are random and in no certain order. :)

Joey will be home from summer camp Saturday afternoon. This week has flown by! I can't wait to see him, I have missed him, but have enjoyed the peace and quiet also. He will be so excited to get back home to his VCR....He loves VCR's. Every time I see one at a yard sale I pick it up or people who know me are always on the lookout for them. Joey plays them so much that he wears them out in no time. Do you realize how hard it is getting to find a VCR now? Very, unless it is the ones with a dvd player also. We don't want that because then he will want to get the dvd's. I really don't want those ruined and ruin him he will. He doesn't understand that you can put your fingers all over them or put them on the floor, etc. You have to be careful with them. Careful is not in Joey's vocabulary when it comes to that.

The weather here today has been awful. We have had severe thunderstorms all day! The power was out here for about an hour and the kids where here alone. I no sooner left this morning when the storms started. Wayne got home not long after I left and had gone to bed as they ran in the ambulance all night, when his fire dept. pager went off. There were trees and powers lines down all over the place. He is really tired tonight! Hopefully he will get rest soon as next week is the last week of summer classes. He will be off of school for the month of August and start the fall classes in September. As of right now he is the top student in the class, I am so proud of him.

Oh well I know I have more to say, but my thoughts are a random mish mosh if that makes any sense, lol... I added two slideshows to the side.

I'll type more when my thoughts are more in order....

Wednesday, July 18, 2007


Well here it is 5:22 a.m. Yes you read the time right, 5:22 a.m.!!!! And I can't sleep. I went to bed around 10 p.m. tossed and turned and finally fell asleep around 1 a.m. Woke up at 2 a.m. to go to the bathroom, went back to bed, tossed and turned....About 4 a.m. I heard something on the back porch....Great Ariel put a bag of garbage on the porch yesterday, bet the animals have gotten into it.... Sure enough {sigh}. I turned on the porch and watched and a mama coon and her 4 kittens dug around and ate from my least someone will eat the leftovers. Now Ariel will be really pissed at me later this morning when I tell her that she has the fun job of picking up all of the garbage on the back porch and taking it to the trailer. The trailer has an electrical charge on it at night just so that the animals can't get to the garbage, cuz if they do it will be a shocking experience :) This is one of the joys of living in a rural garbage pick-up. Well let me restate that... you can get garbage pick one of several ways: 1. Pay an unreal amount each month to have the garbage collection co. to come and pick it up. 2. Leave it out for the bear to take up on the hillside and drag it all over the place for you to have to pick up and then go looking for the garbage can, only to find it full of teeth marks and claw marks where the bear had to hold on to it to get it back up on the hill. 3. Leave it on the back porch and get woken up at 4 in the morning to noises outside only to find a mama coon and her four kittens sifting through it. One consolation about the coons is that they usually leave the garbage in the same general vicinity, unlike the bear who likes to see you get your excercise by trapsing all over the place picking up after him, typical man..... or 4. Get a trailer, put the garbage on the trailer and put an electrical charge on the trailer :) then once a week hook up the trailer and take 5 miles up the road to the garbage dump.

Now on to other are some of my random thoughts this morning that I think don't even make any real sense at all, but at least I wrote them down...

You know I have really been doing some thinking yesterday and this morning....About life....I am really tired of trying to change the things or people who can't be changed. So I am going to stop. I don't need the aggravation of me getting upset because things aren't the way that I think that they should be. Some people understand what I go through, some people don't because they haven't been through what I have {very long story there}. So they say that I take things the wrong way...My question...How can you take things the wrong way if that is the way that it has always been? I mean if you are used to things happening a certain way then how can you take them wrong or read into them the wrong way? I don't even know if I am making any sense. But anyway, sitting here this morning made me realize something...I need to stop thinking that everything or everyone is out to get me or out to do me wrong. By doing this I am acting just like my mother and that is something that I swore I would never do. I don't want to feel sorry for myself and think only of poor pitiful me. I have to break this cycle too. I had to break alot of cycles to where I wouldn't be like my mom and put my kids through what she put me through. I broke the others and I can break this one too. I just have to know and have faith in the fact, that the one who I feel hates me will come around one day and say, "Mom, I'm sorry. I didn't realize what I was doing or how I made you feel. I realize that now, because my child is doing the same thing to me." You know I always thought that I was a good kid....I didn't get in any real trouble when I was growing up. I respected my elders and minded my manners. But apparently my Mom didn't see it that way because she always told me that one day I would have a child that treated me like I treated her. Well I guess she was right, you read that right. I said that she was right, well in some sort of way anyway. I have one that doesn't really want to have anything to do with me. Tells me what I want to hear, just to make me happy and then does something totally opposite. Then I have one that doesn't get in any trouble, is sweet, lovable, caring and tells me "Mom don't worry, don't cry....I won't treat that way when I get married and have children, I will always want to visit with you and let you see and know your grandchildren. I won't say things just to make you happy and then do the totally opposite, because Mom that is just wrong". My other one tells me the same thing.... So maybe they are seeing things in the way that I see them and I am not totally crazy....hmmmm...... They don't like seeing me this way, so they are not going to see me like this anymore. Once again in my life it is time to pull myself up by my bootstraps and say to hell with what people think. Who cares if they think that I am a bitch. I am now going to start saying what I feel and if it comes out wrong then I will apologize for the way that it came out, but not for what I said. (I am not a very tactful person when I need to say what is on my mind).

So there it is a new day and things are going to change. It has been said and now I have to do it. No more poor pitiful me.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Peace and quiet

Well it is peaceful and quiet here at home. Joey is at summer camp. Blake has left to go back home. Cody is spent the night with one of his friends. Wayne is at school, so it is just me and Ariel.... She is of course on MySpace right now and I am in my own little piece of heaven in my scraproom. There is no fighting, arguing, kids running....just peace and quiet. Ahhhhhhhh.......

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

It's been awhile

I can't believe I haven't posted anything since Father's Day. I am surprised that Donna hasn't gotten on my butt for it. It has been a busy and stressful time since Father's Day... As I posted before one of my son's friends is visiting him. Well he has been here almost a month, he will be leaving this coming weekend. I have enjoyed my son being able to visit with his friend, buy why in the hell did I agree to a month? I thought 2 weeks max, I can do this.... Now it is to the point where they are constantly bickering!!! They are worse than teenage girls!!!!

I got to meet my grandson for the first time!!! They came in from Germany on Friday of this past week. He is sooooo adorable and so cuddly! I will be heartbroken when they leave. My baby girl (his mommy) also turned 20 years old yesterday. Boy it seems like yesterday that I gave birth to her and now she is a mommy to a beautiful baby boy. I am so proud of her, she is a WONDERFUL mommy. She has really stepped up to the plate and has done major growing up. I guess motherhood has a way of doing that to you. My heart will break when she leaves too as I feel that we have grown soooo much closer since she gave birth. She now understands why a mom worrys so much about her children. She now knows why a mom never buys herself anything; because she spends it all on the kids, lol...

Well next week my other son will be going to summer camp. The Elks have a summer camp each year for handicapped individuals. Don't get me wrong, I love my son with all of my heart and soul, but I look forward to the week that he is a summer camp. I get to spend quality time with the others, that I normally wouldn't be able to spend with him because of his Autism and always having to be with him. The other kids suffer because he can't do this or that, so we don't go....

O.K. I really don't have anything to ramble on about so I guess that is all for now....see ya....